Elder Gavin Milius: 3RD COMP, SAME AREA

Well it's my 4th transfer out on the mission so I will be hitting 6 months very soon, no I'm not counting I'm just checking every once in a while.

This week has been an emotional Rollercoaster if I've ever seen one, I've some highs and some low points this week. I had to say goodbye to my previous comp and said hello to my new comp!

Tuesday was Elder Naylor's last normal day as a missionary so we spent most of it packing and calling a couple people, nothing too crazy happened because that's mainly all we did. I did get a machete from a lady because I wanted on to cut chicken with it LOL.

Wednesday was transfer day and it honestly was a fine day leading up to when we showed up to transfers. After we parked we talked with some people and then took Naylor’s stuff to the transfer trailer to prepare himself to go home and I'm not gonna lie it was pretty hard to be hanging out with him cause once we got there it felt like I was done, honestly it felt like I finished something grand and something big was gonna happen but that was not the case, I met my new comp, Elder Olson, and we grabbed his stuff, I said goodbye to a couple elders that were going home, then I had to go back to my area like nothing changed and it was super hard. Especially since I was pretty close with one of the elders that left and me and Naylor got along really well so it was like saying goodbye to my best friends again which absolutely killed me inside. I spent a couple nights just sitting in the bathroom basically depressed and it felt like I had been out for a lot longer than I really was. Needless to say I spent the past few days just mellowing over the fact that my friends were home and I wasn't. But I pushed through the day and now I'm trying to adjust back into the mission life

Thursday was my first full day with elder olson and we basically spent it teaching him about the area and about the people that we are teaching. We were weekly planning and all that, we then had some service at a lady's house, it was good to talk with her as well cause It made me a little more excited about the work, then we spent the rest of the day knocking doors, still felt pretty depressed but I was slowly getting better since we actually did some work, I'm still trying to get excited about stuff and the more I focus on the area and the people I feel a little better.

Friday was cool, we had district council today so we got to see our new district which our district is super fun! We then got to go knocking more doors and we had an awesome miracle! Some lady answered and we prayed with her and shared basically a 10 minute book of mormon lesson with her and she said she's had a book of Mormon before but didn't really read it and lost it but that this was a sign to her that she should read it now! We are gonna call her this week so it's gonna be super fun and exciting! Today was the day I saw the post for the departing missionaries and then again it made me super depressed cause I was like dang, my friends aren't doing what I'm doing and they are changing their lives while I'm still super far away from that point in my life. But still adjusting back into the mindset that this is fun and I am here doing the work.

Saturday and Sunday were pretty basic, Saturdays are the best for knocking so we spent the day doing some lessons and some service and some knocking. Sunday we went to church and it was great to see people that day and actually talk with people in the ward so it made my depression go away a little lol. I unfortunately was kinda sick Sunday, I wrapped myself up in a jacket and like 3 blankets, I had a terrible headache and I just could not focus, I think I had a cold or some sort of stomach bug because I genuinely just died on the couch, it was really funny cause I had all my church clothes on and I was just so weak, so cold and so tired that I just went to bed wrapped up in 3 blankets and while wearing pros clothes, but then i woke up at like 1:00 am drenched in sweat so I stripped down to my underwear and spent the next hour trying to fall asleep again. But I woke up Monday feeling a lot better so that was very nice.

Well this week has been a hard one for sure, I'm still trying to change my mind set and hopefully get back to the grind of things. This is my fourth transfer here in this area so I'm hoping I leave after this transfer cause I need some change in my life right now. But hopefully this next week goes by better, and I'll talk to yall in the next one.

-Elder Milius

PS I say I'm depressed but I'm just trunky, I'm missing some people right now and I just got to adjust my mind back into the grind. I'm doing OK and I'm going to push through but hopefully I can adjust to my new comp nicely and get my mind focused on the people of Chesapeake